At SMU

Heya~
i am at SMU using Yilinn's laptop....typing here and there....heehee....anyway...just wanna update on the eCR thing...
i e-mailed violet abt my problems with the darn system and the fact that i did not get what i wanted and what not... alls said and done... she called me yesterday about the timetable thing and now ....
i have the modules i want!!!! woohooo~
AND!
i have the same time table as Yang Mui... heehee....okok...they all are the same except for one subject....heeheee....
still got so much to do...going to be very busy all the way until tuesday... my schedule is totally packed and the headless chicken is running wild... from hougang to clementi to ang mo kio and to geylang east...
still trying to find time to go and get my driving stuff done.... -.-lll
i really wanna drive...
-wails in dispair-

oh well... i am going to volunteer for waterways watch society... heeheee... maybe can go and get me a speed boat licence...
-hyterical laughter-

ok... i see if i can update again later... heehee
-evil laughter-

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I died last night

Deal with the faults of others as gently as with your own.
Death always comes too early or too late.
Death closes all doors.
Death pays all debts.

Have I ever mentioned what my favorite comic strips are?
Foxtrot, Chew on it!, Sherman’s Lagoon, Zits, Non Sequitur, and not forgetting James. I have a soft spot for that matchstick kid.
I used to cut out the ones that really caught my attention and stick them to the back (or front) of my files/textbooks to brighten my days at school. Having those comics on my books also helped me to be more excited about those subjects which I would normally *bleah* over.
I still employ this tactic in my studies at SIM… its fun to go to class and see Jason playing with Quency on the front cover. :D

The past few nights, my dreams have been going into over time. I have a feeling that all this is happening due to the fact that dreamless nights were part of the menu in being burnt out… so now my brain is taking revenge on me.
I have dreamt of being ship wrecked to being chased by vampires, being stuck in the desert, and even dying from being hit in the neck with a dagger/ parang/ (whatever it was, it was long and sharp) ... gives new meaning to the phrase ‘pain in the neck’ eh?
Dreams tend to be so real that when they defy the usual rules of morality and life, you don’t question it and when you do get up from sleep, you wonder why in the world you did not realize that it was a dream in the first place.
If I remember correctly, I managed to pull the blade out of my neck and 1/3 of it was covered in blood, and I was murdered in my own kitchen … Oddly enough, when I got up from the ‘death’ sequence this morning, I had a scar mark on my neck…
I find myself analyzing my dreams and trying to recall who I saw in them. It is pretty hard to recall dreams. For some reason, the figures always elude me and when a similar situation takes place in real life… its déjà vu and I can’t seem to reason why… oh well, such is life I guess… at least we don’t live in the matrix… or do we? O.O

Next movies on my list are: Fantastic 4, Initial D, Sin City and War of the Worlds.
-loud psychotic laughter-

Time to get back to my ‘work’… I wonder what I will dream of tonight…
Cheers~
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Mr. & Mrs Batman Smith Begins

Better wear out shoes than sheets.
Beware of a silent dog and still water.
Black as hell, strong as death, sweet as love. (About coffee.).
Commit a sin twice and it will not seem a crime.
Curiosity killed the cat.
Darkness reigns at the foot of the lighthouse.

It is not a nice sensation to burn out - to burn out during the holidays is even worse.
That is what happened today. However, to understand the reason for my combustion, one must know what I have been up to for the past week.
So here goes:

Monday was the only day not booked by anyone. ‘Anyone’ here refers to school, friends or church. As such, I thought I might as well send time with TKM since I have not done so quite a while. We did a double whammy.
-migumi laughter-
Watched Mr. & Mrs. Smith and Batman Begins.
-more migumi laughter-
Review shall come later.
-grinz-
We rushed from one theatre to another with barely any time to go to the washroom. I had a great time with TKM, can't wait to do it again! Woohoo~

For Tuesday through to Thursday, I was supposed to be a trainer at my church’s Praiser’s Camp, but due to my YFC project, I could not make it on Tuesday. Had the meeting with Swee Shoon, Hui Min, Yilinn and Erica at Shaw House instead.
I though I was going to be the latest because I left the house late and I took the wrong mrt.
Surprise, surprise, our dear Swee Shoon, who is usually the earliest, went to Shaw Towers instead of Shaw House, Hui Min and Yilinn got held up at the printers, and Erica was late as well. The leader – founder of the Choop Seat society that I am, I bought a drink from McCafe and looked for the nicest seat for the 5 of us.
The meeting went well and we managed to get quite a bit done.
Went home and prepared to go to cell group.
Nadia and Joses visited on Tuesday! :D I hope they had a good time. Jeff asked me to lead praise and worship for next week… alamak~ I haven planned my song list yet ah~

Wednesday morning I got up early hitched a ride with Nadia to church. The kids managed to record quite a few songs that day and I had a good time with the bunch, though most of the time the Praise leaders were rather out of hand. Its odd how the older kids are more immature compared to the kids they are supposed to be training.
After the camp ended, I hitched a ride with the Foo family to Kovan to meet up with my society members. For one, I had to eat my dinner and for two, they wanted to take neo-prints. Sadly, Eileen and Glann were late, so we did not get to take the pictures and we ended up being late for training. On the up-side, Alfred, Hui Fen and I managed to get one taken.
-hysterical laughter-
Training was stressful for me, coz my partner for the evening was Chi Foong. He was training my sparring methods, and he has very high expectations. Not that that is a bad thing, its just that its hard to kick high and not miss the target when one is very close to concussing. The brown belters did not help the situation with all their antiques. If they refuse to learn and do their taegueks properly, I have nothing to say. They can go and waste their parent’s money for all I care.
By the way, during the camp, I was so tired I fell asleep during periods when the kids and leaders were making the most noise. Nadia was in the same boat as well.

Mummy was warded for operation on Thursday morning as I continued my camp at GEC. I am proud of the kids for what they accomplished yesterday. Though the Praise kids were tired, they pushed on and got more songs recorded. We had an early nap time that day, during which, I was blessed to be able to get some much needed rest, even if it was just for half an hour. :)
I had to leave the church before the breaking of camp due to my job. By then, the rest had worn off and I was very close to falling asleep in front of my students. -.-lll
It is by God’s grace that I was able to make it home without falling asleep on the bus ah~

My sleep last night can be described in one word: shiok.
I slept without any disturbance save irritation from my sore throat. I had to get up half way to drink water because of that sickening sandpaper sensation.
When I did get up, I found that I had lots of mail to clear and the YFC to deal with. It was all good until I decided to take a nap at 4pm.
For tonight and yesterday, there has been a healing rally taking place at GEC and tonight I was supposed to be there to help look after the children who turned up with their parents.
I knew I had to sleep for a while to prepare myself for the potentially long night ahead of me, I thought that an hour would be enough but unfortunately, when I was roused by my alarm clock, I was assailed by an overall dizziness and overwhelming urge to puke. As soon as TKM and YKM knew of this, they ‘ordered’ me not to go for the service. I then made the necessary phone calls and went back to bed, praying all the way that I would get better and not vomit all over the bed.
I have a feeling that all the ‘sick’ feeling was caused by headless chicken in overdrive, hence the burning down and out of my body. *bleah*
Too sick to go to a healing rally.
How ironic.

Tomorrow is another day, hope I get time to go and visit my mummy… *sigh*

As for the review of the movies:
I have been looking forward to watching Mr. & Mrs. Smith since last year. I like Brad Pitt… what to do?
-swoons over Brad-
The pair have very good on screen chemistry, I don care what they say in the media. They are good actors and it shows. The press should keep their noses to themselves. I think Brad has had enough with it all.
-gets back from digressing-
The movie has a good plot and the action scenes are cool with all the explosions as well as fighting all over the place. The ending was kind of anti-climatically done though; I guess they were trying remained focus on issue of love instead of ending people’s lives.
Would I watch it again? Have to think about that.
Would I buy the VCD/DVD when it comes out? I like Brad Pitt, what do you think?
-loud migumi laughter-

Batman Begins is another thing entirely.
It’s dark, deep and delightful, like chocolate. XD
Christian Bale totally fits the role of the dark night. He moves effortlessly from play boy to caped crusader. He makes the role very human indeed. Not to forget the ‘toys’, they are cool and I can’t help wondering whether they can be used in real life as well as in reel life.
-sinks into thought-
As much as I would like to root for the female lead to get the guy, or the guy to get the girl, the character whom Katie Holms plays does not deserve to get Bruce. She is much too one dimensional. The ‘yin-yang’ thing doesn’t seem to be working for them at all~ heehee…
I can confidently say that the verdict on the movie is out: IT ROCKS!!!
Can’t wait for the next installment! :D
Would I watch it again? Sure!
Would I buy the VCD/DVD when it comes out? YEESSS!!!

Saturday is going to come upon me …. I need to go to bed… if not tomorrow also kanna burn out… still have to find the energy to make it to Sunday.
Once more: So little time, so many things to do.
I have things to do, places to go and people to kill… buah hahahaha~

The joy of the Lord is my strength!
Cheers!
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By the way, I am trying my hand at playing a new song on the piano. :) Can't wait to master it~

Breathe

Better no doctor at all than three.
Better the devil you know than the devil you don't know.
Better to light a candle than to curse the darkness.

Time sure flies, 65% of the time I was having a good time during my week, that’s better than nothing right?

Rewind time:
Wednesday I cursed and swore at the eCR system… i hope my appeal to change modules will be accepted…then gain, I have to write in again for them to know what I want… X.X…. it’s all their fault… I am a victim of the system…
-starts pulling hair out-
Went for the meeting with my group at AWWA then proceeded to YMCA for the workshop… then rushed down to PLKCC for training… I din take part in the training coz I din bring my gi down… too mah huan to carry it all over the place, too many things to worry about lah~
At training, I took the brown and black-tip kids for their patterns… basically I ran through all the patterns with them from yellow upwards and down again. But I am getting ahead of myself, when I got to the CC, Ian was the one taking them, but they were and are so worthy of a proper spanking that he asked me to take over half way. My poor Shuai Ge… seriously, the kids are very the naughty and I can do their patterns a heck of a lot better than they can – any day of the week and twice on training days. I spent most of my time making them redo the patterns and trying to get them to do the patterns correctly. Poom belts must have some standard right? If it were up to me, I wouldn’t let them go for the grading until they are good and ready….and that will be a long time away…
-huge sigh-

Thursday and Friday was spent in Bethel for the BCM community kids day camp. Nadia was kind enough to let me hitch a ride to church with her on both days. Thanks Nadia! The kids are one of a kind. I have never met children whom I have had to spend more than half the time raising my voice at. They were naughty and all candidates for the ‘complain price’ and ‘complain princess’ awards. They picked fights with one another and were sore losers when it came to the games. Many a time I could hear more than one of them saying: “They (the other group) cheated ah!” or “They said that we are lousy ah!”
You try having more than 12 hours of that and tell me what you would do.
Although they were naughty and such, I can not discount the fact that the kids have a lot of fighting spirit. They tried their best at a lot of the activities which we planned for them. The bad apples can still be saved. I have faith that they can be.
I had to work in the evenings of both days, so you can imagine how tired I was at the end of both days. I scolded and screamed so much in the day time, I did not have the energy to keep my kids in line during the evening.
Me thinks me have to come up with a new tactic to keep the order during class…
-pulls out a foolscap and starts jotting down ideas-

oh gosh~
The floor is full of my hair….
-grabs broom and starts sweeping-

As tired as I was, I got up early to go to YMCA for the workshop which my group signed up for. It was interesting and I got to make new friends. It’s amazing what one can learn from just looking at a picture or listening to a piece of music. Ah~ the beauty of life.
We got a free lunch after the workshop. Heeheee…
After finishing our stuff at YMCA, Swee Shoon, Yilinn and myself went to Plaza Singapura to walk around.
Yilinn’s parents picked her up and that left me and Swee Shoon to go to the Orchard Library to pick up books… wah so long I never read comic books liao ah, oh how I miss my X-Men.
-swoons-
Channel 5 is showing Spider-Man this coming Sunday!
-swoons even more-
Now all I have to do is find time to read my books… *sigh*
I am looking forward to getting back my reading habit. Heehoo~
We went home rather late… it is very easy to forget time when one is in the library. With books, strong the force is.

Went to PLMC to witness TKM’s baptism yesterday, YKM and Mum also came along. I was moved to tears during the service. Wah – the power of God. Once service was done, I went down to Plaza Singapura to meet Hui Fen, Glann, Eileen, Dan and Chi Foong.
The TKD National team went down to PLKCC for a demonstration, but I was not able to make it due to the baptism, so Chi Foong helped me take pictures of the demo. Very nice~ Can’t wait to get them from him. He still owes me the video clips …heh… have to chase him for the stuff… haha…
We walked around PS for the rest of the time and spent time in the different shops; we even went to Yamaha to ‘bang’ the pianos there. Music… I love… ran into Jeff and Winston at the guitar shop too… haha….small world… ate Japanese food for dinner and then proceeded to Kovan and while there, we ran into Winnie and Andrew… haha~ Small Singapore…
Got home all bushed and happy. :D
Key word of the day: ‘pok’
The rest of the group spent their money until I had to help them pay for part of their dinners… Nian qing ren ah nian qing ren~ :P
Sleep last night was good. I was stoned out by the activities of the week.

A new week, with more stuff on my agenda.
Got camp, meetings, trainings, outings with family and friends.
The week is going to be complete indeed.

Jia: “wat modules are u taking?”
I signed up for POA, ICP, HRM and MRKG… but I am appealing to change my modules… bloody eCR give me a lot of problems… *grrrrrr*
How about you? Still planning to transfer to PT?

Kimi: “I've completed my task in making the baby hamper!! Really hamper cos I bought a basket and plastic foil to wrap! Hehehe”
Woohoo~ ok! Can get to see it on Tuesday! Heehee….den we can go and pass it to them on the same night ya? :D
See you on Tuesday… got a lot of people going to turn up…. Hahaha…. Donno if Auntie April’s got enough space ah~ hahhahaa…

Yong Jet!
How was your holiday?
When you want to go chiong Jap food?

Ok…let the week commence!
Woohooo~
Have a good one you all!
Cheers!
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eCR... kill! Kill! KIll! KILl! KILL!!!!

Be neither intimate nor distant with the clergy.
Beggars shouldn't be choosers.
Better give a penny then lend twenty.
Better late than never.

I think I can safely say that I am not the only one with a splitting headache when it comes to the eCR system.
I, who did not have enough sleep, had to wake up at 9am odd to get online to do the stupid thing… I had my heart set on certain subjects, but the problem was that the classes were all filled up… one does wonder how come a class can be filled up at such a speed when the selection starts at 5.30am. I would love to bash the idiots who took my places…. Now I will have to take 3 of my core units in year 3… I would be lying if I said I was not worried about that prospect. The issues that arrive from that situation are countless and the amount of money involved is going to hit the roof.
I am very close to going down to SIM and bashing one of the administrators’ head in.
I spent my whole morning on the computer trying to come up with a back up plan for what subjects I wanted to do…but every time I wanted to do something, something else cropped up and I had to go and think of something else…
After all that crap, I finally made up my mind and have confirmed what I want to take….based on the timetables and what is free for me to select… but, I just found out that other people have managed to get what I want…and at a later time…
Wanna try getting me to calm down?
Go ahead… I dare you.

I wonder if I can change my choices… coz I honestly don wanna take a particular unit. It’s not that bad, but I would rather do with out it and have some other unit instead…
-starts to pull hair out-
What a great start to my day… my day will get better! I know it will!

Monday at Desmond’s place… he is very good… should set him against Siya and see what the outcome will be… whoever played with them will sure have a lot of money/ chips missing at the end of the round…
Chi Foong did very well for himself. Either he is getting better or its beginner’s luck coming out in full force. You should have seen the amount of chips he won.
Sadly, me and Yang Mui did not fair that well… -.-lll
Mah jong… can’t wait to play again… just need to find the time to do so … and have to see if my ka kees are going to be free…

Tuesday was good… went back to SRJC with Yilinn and Swee Shoon for some ‘recon’ work for the fund raising project. After the school visit and meeting at McDonalds, I rushed home to bathe and meet Adelyn for the dinner at Esplanade.
The dinner was supposed to be in the form of a picnic. All to commemorate Blood donation day. As I you know, I am a blood donor, so might as well go for that free thing since I already paid for it with my blood. Literally and figuratively.
The dinner did not go as planned but I had a good time walking around with Adelyn. Window shopping and talking. Adelyn did the driving for the evening. If she had not driven, we would have had a hard time getting around.
Thanks Adelyn!

Still got the rest of the week to finish before I can bother about what is going to happen next week…
For today: I got a project meeting later followed by a workshop and then rush down to training.
Tomorrow got church camp and then working in the evening.
Friday is the second day of the church camp.
Saturday I might have to go for a workshop, or end up at work.
Sunday I am going to miss out on my ministry and Bethel, coz TKM is getting baptized! WOoohoO~ Unfortunately, training will be cancelled for Sunday and I will not be able to go down to the CC to see the demo team.
I really hope I can make changes to the subjects and timetable… without transaction of money would be a lot of help… my day is going to get better!
I know it will!
I have faith that it will!
The joy of the Lord is my strength!
I don think I will have time to post for the rest of the week… not unless I find time to breathe…
Trying not to suffocate as it is…

Wish me luck…

p.s. Did you know I ate at McD from Sunday to Tuesday?
I set a personal record … its a wonder I am not puking at the thought of the place…

Not on a Monday

Both your friend and your enemy think you will never die.
Butter would not melt in her mouth.
Children are poor men's riches.
Children should be seen and not heard.
Children suck the mother when they are young and the father when they are old.
Choose neither a woman nor linen by candlelight.
Climb mountains to see lowlands.
Clouds gather before a storm.

Went to SIM with Yang Mui this morning rather early... freakfast routine... how i miss school food...
-rubs head-
Did I just say that? O.olll
The briefing was not as long as we had expected but we have to go back again on the 9th of July for more briefings.
Me and Yamg Mui went to Pasir Ris to meet Chi Foong and Desmond right after finishing the stuff in school.
Mah jong session at Desmond's home... more on that another day...for now let's just say that Mondays are not good days for Yang Mui to play mah jong...

My mum is going to KK hospital for an operation on Thursday morning... pray for her please.

I am tired and need my rest... the pillows are calling...
Tomorrow is another day...
My Lord will carry me through the week!
I know He will!
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My first pattern tournament

As sluttish and slatternly as an Irishwoman bred in France.
As the best wine makes the sharpest vinegar, the truest lover may turn into the worst enemy.
As the big hound is, so will the pup be.
As we live, so we learn.

An advertisement for a meaningful event..
--------------volunteers needed!!!----------------------
There will be an interactive session with the students from Asian Women's Welfare Association [AWWA] on the 21st June, in order to allow volunteers to comprehend the humanitarian cause of helping the disadvantaged.

It will be held at the Family Service Centre (near Boon Keng MRT Station) and will be a great opportunity to interact and learn how fortunate we are.

For more details, don’t hesitate to SMS or call or tag me. Ask Swee Shoon also can. ^-^
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Yang Mui: "Going for the monday briefing, i am. and ah..the advert i copy and paste from ss, but the layout mine mah..hahah.."
Woohooo~
Looking forward to freakfast! So long never smell the canteen O.olll haha~ but Shi Min will be missing out on the fun… oh well… when school term begins again I guess… I don think I will be giving up on advertising for the ‘event’ anytime soon… still got to gunner up volunteers…
-pulls out the puppy dog eyes-
Anyone interested? Please let me know…

The weather today was nuts. I was caught in the rain with Elaine on our way to the Whampoh CC. But the rain did not last for long… speaking of which… I need to go air my umbrella…
-does just that-
OK… tomorrow morning then take it… gosh~ my memory has gone out the window…
-shakes head-
We went to Whampoh for the TKD pattern tournament.
Practically everyone I know from TKD class took part in the competition.
Spent a lot of time practicing my group and I did for our patterns.
A bundle of nerves I was and so were the people round me.
While lining up for my turn on the ‘floor’, a girl from the group behind mine commented that she was very scared. I turned around and told her that everyone else was scared as well, so there was nothing to be worried about… wah… i donno where that came from man~
We had a good laugh here and there. I enjoyed poking Elmo.
-evil laughter-
I can’t believe that he is in the Navy… I had no idea what so ever… then again, I think the sever tan should have been a clue… hahaha….
-continues with the evil laughter-
Anyway, we did the patterns and had mad rushes to different parts of the CC at various intervals… God provided me with the peace of mind not to freak out and I even had to calm down some of my group members. It would have been horrendous if I had been the one to ‘lose it’.
The outcome of the tournament for me was:
Yellow – Bronze
Green – Gold
Heehee… you can imagine my happiness~
All praise goes to God! Woohooo~

We took a lot of pictures as well, but it was not using my camera, I guess I will have to wait to get the pictures from the others… there were many people with cameras… many… wish me luck in getting all of those pictures xia~

Once we finished our ‘business’ matters at the CC, we (I, Hui Fen, Chi Foong and another girl whose name I still can’t remember) made a beeline to the nearest McDonalds… the food was good~ You would have said the same thing too if you had waited till 2pm like we did before being let off and able to finally get some food into our tummies.
By the time we finished out late lunch, we were less than 3 hours away from thje start of training at PLKCC, so Hui fen, Chi Foong and I did not go home and instead went straight to the CC for training. XD In doing so, I successfully spent a total of 10+ hours in my gi. O.o That is the longest period of time so far. I wonder when I will break that record…
-goes into gee thought-
At the CC, the three of us were allowed to take things easy, (i.e. we did not have to do the usual exercises) mainly because we had already had a long morning and we were in charge of the class for the day… Mr. Chow was late for the class due to a referee course he had to attend to. The things one has to do when one is a high ranking coach~
The turn out of kids today was rather small, so that was kind of on my side, I took the class for a about half the session and spent the rest of the time learning some self defense moves from Chi Foong. I tell you, that guy is a total over achiever in disguise! Bui ta han ah! Great time I had learning and trying out my new moves… hopefully I will never have to use them in the future… pacifist - I am.
Time flew and class ended, went home we all had to… dinner was waiting for me… for once I was not that hungry… given the fact that I ate a pretty late lunch, I guess I should not be too surprised… I am just missing my Ben and Jerry’s… *sigh~*

I had a very good day.
Yes, I did.
It’s a good start to new week, there’s a lot to do and if today is any indicator of how much fun I am going to have… I can hardly wait! Wooohooooo~

To everyone having a good week!
Cheers!
^-^

Eyes

Worrying never did anyone any good.
You can't make a silk purse from a sow's ear.
You catch more flies with honey than with vinegar.
Youth is wasted on the young.

An advertisement for a meaningful event..
--------------volunteers needed!!!----------------------
There will be an interactive session with the students from Asian Women's Welfare Association [AWWA] on the 21st June, in order to allow volunteers to comprehend the humanitarian cause of helping the disadvantaged.

It will be held at the Family Service Centre (near Boon Keng MRT Station) and will be a great opportunity to interact and learn how fortunate we are.

For more details, don’t hesitate to SMS or call or tag me. Ask Swee Shoon also can. ^-^
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Yang Mui: "eh..ur advert is ctrl+c and ctrl+V from mine ah?..hahahaa.. and oh..i dun have this song..hahah..the chain is broken!"
Yes it is… sorry I didn’t tell you… but you cut and paste from Swee Shoon too wad… XP… hmmm…I think the chain will remain broken with this next song… but I already have it liao… you want? haha…Monday you going for the orientation thing? Must let me know ah~ I got a lot of things planned for that day…so if I want to join me…
-evil laughter-
Here goes the song:

Kelly Clarkson - Behind These Hazel Eyes

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I have a fondness for my eyes. I have no idea why I am so fixated on them. Maybe its because I am legally blind, but all the same I love the uniqueness of my irises not forgetting the blue rims around them… talking about that… Asians do not really have black eyes right? They are just dark brown right? If so, then in that case, the song applies to all Asians? O.o
My current state of being is echoed by the song all the same… whatever my eye colour… both eye balls are probably red from all the crying anyway… *bleah*

To Seng Kang Secondary School to train for the tournament with Chi Foong, Ally and Hui Fen this morning I went. Train and laugh and make jokes and what not. Had a good time. After the class ended, we all went back to Kovan, where we had to go our separate ways. I went to see Alfred’s performance. Play guitar he did, good he is. Keep it up Alf!

So here I am typing on this hot Saturday afternoon. Waiting for reprieve from the heat I am. The heat is a real itch that has a huge ‘B’ in front. Argh~
Rain would be good…
-looks up at the sky-
Hear that?!?!
I want rain!
Need to water the plants!
I WANT RAIN!!!!
Please?
The irony is that the rain always comes when I am on my way home, resulting in my clothes getting all wet and then when I do step into my home… less than half an hour later, the rain stops. X.xlll That part totally sucks, but I love rain all the same. It makes me happy. ^-^

Siya ah~
Hope your feeling better… stay at home and watch your new SCV or pound the PS into the ground… train yourself in Winning Eleven then can go and challenge Aziz. Heehee… I will be rooting for you! :D
Get well soon ya?
Then when you and I are free, we can go gym, watch movies, play mah jong and maybe we can play badminton again…
-migumi laughter-
Concentrate on getting well for now, the best us yet to come. :)

Tomorrow is the pattern tournament.
In less than a month’s time, it will be grading again. Wow… for the up coming grading I am required to spar. O.O oh gosh… I have to train more. I have only two options: Either my opponent loses or I win. Hmmm… which one do I choose? Rather hard to decide eh?
Oh well, get over the tournament then come and headache lah~
It will be a successful day tomorrow!
With God’s help, I know it will!
Woohoooooo~
Talk about that... need to sleep early tonight… didn’t get enough sleep (again) last night -.-lll Have to go and pack my bag and get all my stuff ready for tomorrow morning…

To success at the tournament!
Cheers!~
^-^

Return of the headless chicken

A wise man makes his own decisions, an ignorant man follows the public opinion.
A woman has the form of an angel, the heart of a serpent, and the mind of an ass.
Act in the valley so that you need not fear those who stand on the hill.

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I have been having a lot of ups and downs of late.

The headless chicken has been running all over the place. It is back with a vengeance. More like taking revenge on me for trying to slow down my life.

Sunday –
Was in church till 2 pm then went home to rest. Pack bag for training. Training started at 5pm and lasted till 7pm because we were practicing for the tournament. Not forgetting the fact that I was trying to get the forms in order so that we could submit them to Mr. Chow in time for the tournament.
Jill even came down to fill me in on the details so I could fill up the forms for all the 4 categories which SIM is taking part in. More on that later…
Once training was done, I went to the badminton court to continue wrecking havoc on my body. I played badminton with the church people till 8pm.
I then ran home to catch a television programme on Mr. and Mrs. Smith.
-goes into a dreamy daze over Brad Pitt-
Brad… *swoon*

Monday –
Went out with Chi Foong, Aziz and Parveen. We went to Lido to catch the movie: Unleashed.
Originally title: Danny the dog. The title was changed due to protests from the Chinese public. The fight scenes were all very good. Maybe I could try out the moves during training one day. O.o Hahaha~
Music, punches, kicks, more punching and lots of blood flying all over the place. Funny lines and great acting. Jet Li’s injured puppy look was the most heart breaking.
The characters all have different accents. British and American were the most dominant. It’s odd how a British actor can say any type of vulgarity and make it sound cool. With the exception of hokkien lah~ Don’t you find that when an American swears, it’s not as ‘cool’? the British did after all invent the language… hahaha….
I love fact that music played a central role in the story. It made me want to get back into the music scene. Music touches the soul and expresses emotions better than any form of written or spoken language. Conveyed the story the music did.
Would I watch it again? Oh yes.
Would I buy the VCD/DVD when it comes out? Hell yeah! XD

Tuesday –
Had a meeting with my project members regarding the fund raising project. See above. Rushed home. Rushed through dinner and then ran out to Auntie April’s home for cell group. This week cell was held at her place because Ps Alan is a new daddy! Auntie Kia Moey gave birth to a baby boy – Asher – last Friday. I can’t wait to see what he looks like! New cell member! :)
We ate roti prata at Auntie April’s home; her husband bought the food for us to eat. Thanks! Jalan kayu roti prata is the bestest! Jeff fetched me home after the session was over.
Watched my CSI episodes and knocked out at my usual time of 2am.

Wednesday –
Got up…not enough sleep… got my things in some level of order and then rushed to meet Hui Min at Boon Keng MRT station in order to go to AWWA to collect some stuff. After meeting with the people at AWWA, we made for YMCA to meet Swee Shoon and then head for the meeting with Erica and John who are out group mentors. I praise God that we have such enthusiastic mentors. Their insight is very meaningful and extremely helpful. Truly a God send they are both.
Did not foresee that the meeting would end at such a late time so rush/run again I had to, all the way home and through my dinner to make it in time to the CC to train with my team for the tournament.
6.30 reach home, 6.45 run out to meet them. Supposed to meet at 7pm. The problem most of the time is that none of them are on time. The only person who was there on time was Chi Foong and I feel real bad for making him wait. It seems that every time I am to meet him, I make him wait for me instead. Damn paiseh xia~
We managed to practice all the patterns and what not. Desmond and Genevieve also came down to practice with us.
I was supposed to be entered into the tournament under 4 belt categories (2 for the CC and 2 for SIM). I admit that taking art in 4 is a big load but I was fine with it. Till this morning.
I got a SMS telling me that a ‘collective’ decision was made to replace me with another individual under one of the societies which I was supposed to represent, so now I am only representing one organization and will be doing 2 categories of patterns.
I am cool with the reasons for replacing me, but I am not happy with the way I was informed. The fact that I am directly involved and have spent so much time on the practices and not given a say in the out come makes me feel very f***ed indeed.
That said and done, I wish that group all the best and hope that similar things do not take place in the future.
I shall continue to prepare and do my damn darnest for the tournament.

Christina Aguilera – Hello

Oh ooh, yeah

Does it ever feel like
No one is with you
No one sees it your way
Everyone's against you

But it's your life
Gotta keep the faith
Hold your vision
You will find your way, yeah

Ah, yeah, oh yeah

I may not fit the mold
May not do what I'm told
I will not be swayed
By the things that they might say

They may have had their doubts
No matter what I've found
I have held my ground
Look at me, I'm still around

So dream on, dream on, yeah
Don't ever let them steer you wrong
When life comes knocking
Gotta keep on rocking
Open that door and
Shout it to the world, singing

Hello, hello, ha
Here I am, here I go
Yeah, yeah
'Cause I got love to give
And I got dreams to live
So hello, hello
Hello, hello, oh ooh yeah

And if you don't fit in
Just know your differences
Are beautiful to see
Well, they're beautiful to me

There's no one quite like you
Be proud in all you do
You know you'll find a way
Be who you are, don't be ashamed now

Shine baby, shine, yeah
'Cause it's all in your mind
The life you crave
The love you make, said
It's all up to you and
You just gotta say

Hello, hello
Here I am, and here I go
Yeah, yeah
I got love to give
And I got dreams to live
So hello, hello
Hello, hello

So don't you ever let it pass you by
It's your life
Yeah, yeah, yeah
You gotta dream, you know you gotta try
It's your time to shine, oh yeah
Said, shout it to the world, sing

Hello, hello, woo
Here I am, here I go
Yeah, yeah
I got love to give
And I got dreams to live
So hello, hello

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Hello, hello, ooh yeah
Hello, hello, oh ooh, yeah
Hello, hello
Hello, hello, yeah
Hello, hello, I said yeah, yeah
Said it goes on and on, yeah yeah
Hello, hello
Hello, hello, ooh
Ooh yeah

Goodbye
See you later
Ciao
Muah

Yang Mui: “eh..everytime u put up lyrics to a song, i realise that i have it..haha..you want?”
Yang Mui! You have this song? Heehee…I like and I want~
-hysterical laughter-

Shangz: “Right back at cha ... Hiz .. haha”
Your site rocks Shang! I dig the comments!
The pictures are very eye opening… hahaha…

Jia: “hmm.. *shrugS* maybe.. somewhere next next wk? =X”
Jia: “anyway.. free next tue? mj..”
Hrm… have to rain check… my whole of next week is burnt by other stuff already… the following week as well… we have till August/September …still got time to plan… heehee…. I am praying that I have time to breathe… at the rate I am going, I am going to burn up, burn out and break down…

Yong Jet!
Free when? Koshin bon!!!!!!!

Kimiaki!
How’s work?
Jia you!!!!
Need me to bish anyone for you?
I am looking for sponsors…you got any in mind for my project?
Free when? Koshin Bon!!!!!! Japanese food… Toa Pa Yoh?

So many things to do, so little time.
I have places to go, things to do and people to kill…
-evil laughter-

Gotta run now…
Hope you guys are enjoying your holidays and freedom.
Cheers!
^-^

25 hours more

Anger is as a stone cast into a wasp's nest.
Anger without power is folly.
Appetite comes with eating.

I was wrong... Though did I that I would have the energy to write about my escapades. The entry shall have to wait... my brain is fried and my body is wasted. Never knew that my schdule during the holidays would be more packed than during school term time.
So much to do, so little time and energy.
I am but human afterall.
The joy of the Lord is my strength!

Have fun you all~
^-^

12 hours later...

No man limps because another is hurt.
No man ought to look a given horse in the mouth.
No rose without a thorn, or a love without a rival.
No time like the present.

I had thought that I would be able to put up a post by this time... sad to say, I am so bushed that I shall have to wait till tomorrow to pen down my thoughts...

Hi Shangz!
I am saying Hi! XP

Parv!
Had a great time!
Can't wait for the next outing!

I shock myslef sometimes... my current MSN nick is:
'God's most o.O creation: The power of music and having Brad down my jeans...'
Oh my~

Brain shutting down...
Let your dreams grab you and take you to the edge of reality...
Brain has shutted down...
-hysterical laughter-

^-^

How many letters are there?

Never put off till tomorrow what may be done today.
Night is the mother of council.

I was going to type a lot just now... I think I will just leave it till I get home... haha
Thinking of songs to put down...or maybe I might compose some poetry... man! I miss literature!

Have good day guys!
^-^

Friends, badminton, mj and work

A thief believes everybody steals.
A thorn defends the rose, harming only those who would steal the blossom.
A throne is only a bench covered with velvet.
A trade not properly learned is an enemy.
A tree falls the way it leans.
A white Christmas fills the churchyard.
A wise man hears one word and understands two.

Yesterday was a very good example of blotched planning.
We (Desmond, Yang Mui, Aziz, Baolin, Siya, Parveen, Chi Foong and I), were suppose to go to Tampines to play badminton at 11am, followed by lunch and mah jong at Desmond’s place.
Here’s how it really went:
Parveen and Desmond were not able to make it due to an urgent matters, Shirleena made a last minute appearance for badminton and everyone but Aziz and Chi Foong was late. Due to our not being able to be at the courts at 10.45am, we lost the courts and were left to wait till 12pm before we could get our rackets out and start smashing cocks.
We played till the side of 2.15pm before heeding our tummies and going for lunch. Since ‘No Desmond – no house – no mah jong’ we had to come up with a back-up plan. That plan was to go to Siya’s home to play mah jong. That decided, Yang Mui, Chi Foong and I followed Siya to her place to ‘dry swim’.
I got a sms from my boss while we were having lunch. She asked me to go to work that evening. Seeing that that sms was rather last minute and intruding on my ready made plans, I initially appologished that I could not make it to work… shortly after I sent that sms, I changed my mind and told my boss that I would be late instead of not turning up. Why?
The dry swimming ended at 6pm odd because Yang Mui had to rush off to meet her family for dinner and Chi Foong had to go home for dinner. That meant that we would only have 2 players and be short of 2 more. The problem of ‘er que er’ -.-lll With that situation seen on the horizon, I messaged my boss and let her know that I would be late…
The headless chicken made a come back as I rushed home and out again to work. I did not have time for dinner so I resorted to buying food home from work and eating at 10.30pm.
That was my Friday. Heh….
Friends, badminton, mah jong and work… what a blessed day. ^-^

I bought 3 VCDs today after work.
House of fury
Mulan
Mulan 2
I hope I don’t burn the television set out.
-hysterical laughter-
Can not buy anymore liao… my wallet is crying for me to stop my spending ways… have to save so I can go out more…haha… or wait till more nice VCDs to come out… Howl’s Moving Castle!!!! I am waiting for that to come out!!!!
-migumi laughter-

Lifehouse – You and Me

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive


Joshy:"hehe cuzzie ahh..bah ge is rabbit teeth,bo ge then is no teeth lar ;)"
Ok… noted. Hehe… I typed that entry at a very late time mah~ So must forgive forgive coz I was rather sleepy…haha…

Jia: "DO NOT READ SHAMAN KING MANGA~! THE ENDING SUCKS~! =X anyway... that's one of the reason i hate kids.. =X when mj session? u all weekdays free? =X"
Shaman King is that bad?? O.O
Bu hui ba~
I think I will wait till Siya’s cousins return her the manga then I borrow from her… I don think my home has enough space for new manga… yet…
-evil laughter-
The kids today were not that bad…just one of them got on my nerves…I was very close to picking him up and shaking him like a rag doll… He is a mean spirited child and needs a good spanking. I just wonder if his parents have the balls to give it to him. If they don’t, I think I just might take out the cane and do it for them.
-counts to 10 backwards-
MJ session?
Good question!
When are you free? Venue of choice?

Parveen!
How was the meeting?
Did you knee your prof for me? XP
How was Sentosa?

To those who have yet to be free from the UOL exams:
JIA YOU!!!!!
-pulls out the pom poms-
Show them what you’re made of!
Ganbatte!!!!
:D

Time for dinner!
Have a good weekend guys!

My day with Daddy

Advice should be viewed from behind.
Advice when most needed is least heeded.
After shaking hands with a Greek, count your fingers.
Age is honorable and youth is noble.
All is well that ends well.

Bloggerversary continues... XP

My dad woke me up this morning by shaking my foot. I was having such a nice time sleeping… but it had to come to an end for the day to start.
Daddy and I took a walk to the Heartland Mall area to eat our ritual bowl of beef noodles. Though the store is no longer under the original power cook, the new owner is getting better. Heehee…
After filling our tummies, we took the NEL to Outram and out to SGH to donate blood. It’s been almost a year since I got my arm stuck with the needles. The blood is still thick and warm. That tells me my heart is still beating… heh… the bandage they gave me this time is rather cool. To me anyway~ the whole thing was green and had smiley faces all over it. I wore it the rest of the day… for some reason; the bleeding would not stop… O.olll

Once done with the ‘blood letting’, we debated about where to go next. The initial plan was to go to Suntec and walk around, but the weather made Daddy change his mind. In the end, we hopped back on board the NEL and ended up at Seng Kang. We went to the library and ate at BK. Daddy finally got the books which he has been looking for since last year. Yippeee! :D I also managed to get a book on WWE quotes… very funny xia~

Work was ok, though I think 3 particular boys deserve a big spanking. Children as mean as them are really kiam bong one.
Very very kiam bong.
I feel sad for the next generation if the children are going to act like those brats. One does wonder what kind of children Singapore will have if and when those brats grow up and have kids of their own.
-shakes head and sighs-

Shaman King is growing on me. I like the plot and I think the characters are unique unto themselves. Unlike other animes/ mangas, the characters are significantly more 3 dimensional.
Siya!
Is the manga any good?
Which one better? The anime or the manga?

Rascal Flatts - Bless The Broken Road

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream lead me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Carrie Underwood sang the song during the final episode of American Idol 4.
Almost brought me to tears...

Feeling weak due to the blood loss, my body needs to recoup…
Looking forward to tomorrow!
^-^

Bloggerversary

A spoon does not know the taste of soup, nor a learned fool the taste of wisdom.
A table is not blessed if it has fed no scholars.
A teacher is better than two books.

Today is my blog’s first anniversary.
Hold it!
Make it my first ‘Bloggerversary’!
Heehee…
I would like to thank Jie Yang for his help in starting this site one year ago.
Thanks buddy!
Erm…do I have to sing some sort of special song for this occasion?
-rubs head in thought-
Got any song in mind for me to sing?

I shall think hard about that one… for now…
I e-mailed Mr. Mark Tan regarding the production which is going to be put up by SRJC a few weeks ago, never got a reply from him till last night.
Apparently, the previous e-mails he sent to me all bounced back to him. -.-;;;
Too much spam in my in-box I guess… but anyway… I finally got the details about the performance from him as well as the dates and times of the practice sessions.
As fate would have it, he cancelled the session which they were supposed to have on Monday… so when Adelyn, Parveen and I reached school, we were pretty much on the ‘high and dry’ road.
That is not to say that we did not have a good time, coz we ended up hanging out with Mr. Tan and Mr. Rosells at J8.
I just night go back another day to see them rehearse… just for kicks, since I have not seen them ‘get-it-on’ yet. Haha…
Anyone wanna go back with me?

Hang on, let me try and remember what I did for Tuesday…
-rubs head in thought-
Oh! Ok!
I went to the dentist with TKM.
It has been almost a year since my last visit to Dr. Lim.
The mutant factor is pretty high in this area of dental appointments.
Believe it or not, I like going to the dentist.
I find it fun.
Have to remember to go back within the next 6 months.
I am too young to be bah ge.
Hahaahaaa…

The evening of Tuesday was spent at cell group.
The whole gang back to together again, well, those who could make it anyway… Had a good time…Auntie Kia Moey is going to give birth on Friday!!!!
New member for our cell group! Woohoooo~
Jeff sent me home and rushed off to meet Paul and Elaine for a gym session.
Heh…I was thinking about joining them, but since I already had a gym ‘date’ with Siya on Wednesday morning… might as well go home and sleep right?
Hahaha~

The rain came down on our way to the gym… figures… my shoes got wet again and I had to work out in them... icky numb toes got I when I reached home… its been such a long time since I have been to the gym with Siya… more than 4 months liao… I am guessing that the weather played a big part in the number of people training that morning… it was nice to be able to use the equipment without aunties looking over your shoulder and hinting to you that they want you to hurry up… the testosterone level yesterday was not too bad… ran into some seniors from SRJC and man! They have changed a lot… no longer the skinny guys I knew… now they are beefy and have muscles… wah… what a change…
Looking forward to the next session ah, Siya! :)
Must train harder so we can go swimming… heehee… maybe next time I can do more reps at that particular station… my body is kinda aching though…haha~

The time of Wednesday which I always look forward to… TKD training!
Desmond managed to come down for training today. A ‘slice’ of SIM at Paya Lebar… heh… We paired up for the kicking sets… he has improved a lot.
Congrats Des! Totally spoil the market ah you!
I have to practice more to get better xia~
Can’t wait for Sunday… heheheee…
The only damper in my day would have to be the fight that almost took place at the CC.
-shudders at the memory-
Very scary to be there and see the situation unfolding…
I hope it does not happen again… but that would be wishful thinking wouldn’t it?
-sigh-

I am still in the midst of getting my schedule in order for the rest of the month… don need to talk about the rest of my holidays… the month is a big enough task… haha... also need to pack up my things which are lying around the house and my table… a new CD rack would be nice as well… my CD collection is growing very fast… oh gosh~
The same goes for my VCD collection… hahaha…
-envisions money flying out of the already thin wallet-
So many things to buy, so little money to spend…
-heaves another sigh-

I look forward to the days ahead, not because I know what is going to happen but because I have no control and I will be spending them with people I love.
Now that is what I love about life. :D

Edwine Mccain - I Could Not Ask For More

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see, the smile upon your face
And these are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
And these are the moments
I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are, is everything to me

And these are the moments
I know heaven must exist
And these are the moments, I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for (yeah)
And I could not ask for more…

I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
And every dream I’ve hads come true
yeah, right here in this moment, is right where I'm meant to be
Oh, here with you here with me…
Ooh, yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah

And these are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
and these are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for yeah
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
And every prayer has been answered
And every dream I’ve hads come true
yeah, and right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
here with you here with me…

I could not ask for more than the love you give me
'Cuz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more (more)
ooh and I could not ask for more

Clay Aiken sang this song during one of the episodes of American Idol during the second season.
The memory of him singing it still makes me go weak at the knees…
-migumi laughter-
I used to sit in front of the television set just waiting for him to start singing and then I would rush to the computer to download the song he sang.
If I am not wrong, I think I downloaded all the songs he sand during the entire season. Sadly, my computer crashed and I lost everything… it would be nice if they had come up with a compilation of all the songs Clay sang in every episode of American Idol, regardless of the season.
They donno how to make real money lah~
Hahaha…

Yong Jet!
Jia you!!!!!
540 the papers!
You can do it!

Parv!
Looking forward to the unplanned movie marathon... heehee~

Kudos again to JY…
You will get a thank you from me around the same every year…for the same reason I might add...
Don say I never say ah~
Hahaha…

After a quick reflection on the events of late and the past year... I wanna thank God for bringing me thought my ups and downs. Providing for me and blessing me with a loving family, great friends and the beautiful life which I wake up to every day.

The day awaits!
Just bring it!
^-^

Blood spatter

Blood is thicker than water.

A lot of things have been going on lately.
By right I should be enthu typing like crazy, but for some reason, I just don feel like doing so at the moment... too much emotions jumping all over the place... need to calm everything down and get my head on straight... read my books and get over someone... get some order back into my life...
For now, its just blood spatter.

Time wounds all heals.

One more day to my blog's one year anniversary... WoW... okok... a longer entry tomorrow I shall type...

If dreams were wishes and wishes were granted.
*sigh~*